I think I will be moving in with someone because others are starting to worry about me being alone

[lovesher]

a part of me finds journals stupid but i'm in love with the fact that i'm making contact with human beings outside of facebook. and livejournal eventually was like a mini-facebook to me. but that was years ago. which makes it even worse. wow, that's a long story. yeah i'm barely hanging in here actually so this is kind of for therapeutic purpose. I kind of came close to attempting suicide on Christmas. it's a longer story. I can't believe I wrote about the aforementioned girl so quickly without doing her or it justice. I guess she does herself justice. OK anyway she scared me because I really thought she was straight but I didn't really get it. I met someone new I may be moving in with. I hate to jinx it but what if one day I find something real that cannot jinxed. I always jump the gun and think something is going to happen and then nothing does. I'm just so so tired of being alone.

so I can almost feel a push and that's good.