just so self-conscious

[lovesher]

But that's the type of thing we talk about in my head. All the ways I'm coming across and things I can do about that to improve my presentation. I'm so painfully shy that if I didn't rehearse everything I'm going to say ahead of time I'd probably stutter. This habit has gotten better, however. I'm much less awkward physically than I used to be. It used to be extremely difficult for me to just Act Natural at all times. I may come off as a walking stiff.

I'll have to link to a pic of myself because I know I'm attractive.

But..